This time of year, I feel the grief of everyone I have lost through the years. Too many people. Some gone too soon. Others leaving a broken heart in their shadows as they walk away.
Tonight is one of those moments of intense grief. Memories drifting through my mind. The pain and hurt proving that I’m still alive and breathing. Even though I don’t want to be.
I wish I could scream out loud. Swear at the universe. Instead, I scream on the inside. Because I don’t have that voice that allows me to express these emotions in as powerful a way as I feel them on the inside. So they remain there. Where only I can hear them.
These waves of grief wash over me. Pulling me under. Drowning me. But I fight for the surface. I fight for that elusive air.
Journey Toward Healing 
17 responses to “Fighting For Air”
I hear them. I silently scream too, on another continent. Life is really tough sometimes, and the grief and pain of a borderline hurts so much more. I hear you, and I wish you didn’t feel this 😞😔 Xxx
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Thank you, lovely. Your words “I hear you” touched me deeply. ❤
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Borderline peeps always hear each other 💛💛💛
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That’s so true! ❤
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Sending you love and hugs ❤ xx
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Thank you. Sending you hugs and love too. ❤
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It takes strength to feel grief…this time of year opens that all up..hoping you will be held in love as you feel all that pain and grief..☔
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Thank you so much. It’s an incredibly hard time of year. I hope you’re well. 🙂 ❤
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I am sorry you are feeling the grief as strongly as you are. This time of year certainly seems to make that feel ten times worse than normal. I am thinking of you.
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It seems too many people find this time of year so hard and painful. Thank you for your thoughts and care. 🙂
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I’m so sorry you are feeling it. This time of year the losses feel heavier and the void larger. Sending hugs your way
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Thank you for the hugs. 🙂 Sending some your way too. ❤
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Oh Rayne, I feel your pain… you are not alone! Hugs, lots of hugs!!!
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It’s nice to know we’re not alone. But it’s also sad to know that others feel this way too. Hugs to you. ❤ ❤
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That is very true!
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Sweet Rayne, the darkness has tried from day one to bury who you are meant to be. But you are strong! And an not be silenced! Look within, you KNOW who you are. Confusion has reigned supreme until now! You KNOW what todo, what to ask!
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Thank you for your thoughtful comment. I appreciate it. 🙂
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