I recently came across something I wrote years ago. This was before I started therapy, and it’s beautiful to see how things have changed. I still struggle with most of these things, but not to the extent I used to. It’s become easier to reach out and open up. To be honest about my feelings, needs, and wants. I’m still a work in progress, but then again, aren’t we all?
Want
You want to reach out. Instead, you keep it inside.
You want to know whether they care. But you don’t ask.
You want to be seen. Instead you hide.
You want to be heard. Yet you silence your voice.
You want to feel real. So you hurt yourself again.
You want to tell someone you want to die. That you can’t imagine living one more day. Instead, you smile, because you don’t want to be a burden.
You want to cry. Instead, you hide behind humour.
You want to open up. Instead, you put your shield up. Afraid you’ll be rejected and cast aside once again.
It’s a beautiful poem. Very heartfelt.
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Thank you. 🙂
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Oh, dear Rayne – I do so struggle with these things. I have no idea how to “fix” this. Thank you for writing this – so I am recognizing all these things – May I show my T your list? I would like to hold your hand. TS
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Of course, you can show your T. 🌺
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that’s so beautiful and is exactly how I feel. xo
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