The work day went by so quickly. It felt as though I had just gotten there, then it was time to leave. When I got home and up until now time just seems to be dragging. It’s usually the opposite.

I’m super bored, which is rare. There’s usually so much I want to do and it seems like there isn’t enough time to fit it all in. There’s all the usual things I do that keep me occupied and that I enjoy, but tonight I don’t feel like doing any of them. I forced myself to read a little bit, but couldn’t focus. There wasn’t anything on my mind, I would just zone out often, so threw that aside. Watched an episode of a series I enjoy, but same thing happened. I just want it to be bedtime already. Have to wait to take my meds.

I think I may be depressed, but I don’t quite know why. Something feels off, both inside me and in the world.

9 thoughts on “Time

  1. So sorry you are struggling Rayne. Do you do meditation? Sometimes focusing on just breathing and the moment I am in helps me feel better when I feel “off”. I hope this feeling lifts for you.

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    1. Meditation makes me more anxious rather than it being helpful, and focusing on my breathe also doesn’t really do much, sometimes it even increases my heart rate… maybe I’m weird, lol. When I’m in nature, I can practice mindfulness much much better, because there’s plenty of beauty to take in. 🙂


  2. My anxiety has seen me become more obsessed with time than I ever have been and it isn’t a nice feeling. Since changing my shifts at work, I’ve actually been able to just sit and relax at home with the opportunity to do nothing. It’s a nice, alien sensation.

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