I’m dealing with some powerful emotions and abandonment triggers, and don’t know how to cope with them right now. I’m trying to use my tools to regulate myself, because I can feel myself heading for a meltdown. It’s been a busy day with way too much stimulation. But even the best tools and things that usually help don’t always work. That’s when it’s helpful to have someone else around. Now that I’m back home alone, I don’t have that.
In DBT (Dialectical Behavioral Therapy) they tell you to check the facts before reacting on our emotions. But how the hell am I supposed to do that when I don’t have the facts? I’m someone who needs as much information as possible in order to make decisions, process, understand things, or generally be able to regulate myself.
But there’s uncertainty. The bane of my existence. Uncertainty about so many things.
My meds have just started kicking in, so I’ll end this here before everything starts getting blurry.
Maybe I’ll feel better tomorrow.
One response to “Facts? no, Uncertainty”
This sounds so hard! One thing E used to tell me that seems relevant, “When in doubt, don’t do anything to make it worse.” She often meant don’t drink, don’t self-harm, don’t quit a job, etc. sometimes it’s just about hanging in there until you get more information or can access more support. I’m sorry you’re so triggered right now.
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