Author: Rayne
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Vaccine and Life
On Thursday I went for my first dose of the Pfizer covid vaccine. It went better than I was expecting. I have no issues with needles, but I do get anxious and paranoid about side effects (same as whenever I take a new medication). My arm was a bit painful that evening, but not enough […]
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How Can I Believe?
I wish I could believe this quote. I’ve been somewhat in survival mode for so long that it feels I’ll never get out of it. That there’s no end in sight. My childhood was one of survival. I always thought that once I was out of that stage of my life I would be okay. […]
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Comfortably Numb
After a couple of weeks of intense emotions, I’m drained. As if we don’t have enough going on with Covid, South Africa has also been experiencing unrest due to political crap. All the personal stuff I’m dealing with has also been overwhelming. But numbness set in when I woke up yesterday. I can usually reach […]
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Getting Back Into It
The hardest part of writing is knowing where or how to start. This has been one of my biggest challenges. Not only in writing new blog posts, but business emails, text messages, and social media updates as well. It’s not that I don’t know what I need to say, or what I want to write […]
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We Deserve, But Are Not Owed
“The world doesn’t owe you anything”. That simple sentence (and variations of it) has always had a way of instilling a sense of profound guilt within me. When I say those words to myself, it’s meant as a punishment of sorts. A way of saying “so just get over it” or that I don’t deserve […]
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I Am (Alive)
I don’t want to be alive in a world where our sexuality, gender, religion, race, disABILITY, is a source of division rather than curiosity and acceptance. Where wars are never ending and threats of war constantly hang over us like the clouds in a dark sky. I don’t want to be alive in a world […]
Journey Toward Healing 