Category: Borderline Personality Disorder
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Confusion
Don’t touch me. Please hold my hand. Leave me alone. Please stay. I hate you! I love you! How can all of these kinds of conflicting thoughts and feelings exist in a person at the same time?
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“Be Kind To Yourself”
These were the words spoken to me by my therapist yesterday. I’m struggling, a lot, and needed that reminder. It’s times like this that I’m especially grateful for therapy and a great therapist. My inner critic has been especially boisterous this past while, as have the critical voices from my childhood and beyond. Every attempt […]
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The Place Of Emptiness, Apathy And No Purpose
I just finished an amazing book by Donna Tartt titled The Goldfinch, and want to share a paragraph from it that sums up my feelings (and opinion) about life. “Because I don’t care what anyone says or how often or winningly they say it: no one will ever, ever be able to persuade me that […]
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Do I Really Love?
There are times where I feel nothing for people. Not even those I “claim” to love. This can last from hours to weeks. Sometimes I wonder whether I really do love after all? Then there are moments where I know I love that person/those people and I feel it, but that feeling can come and […]
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Struggling
I’ve been struggling a lot these past few days. My sympathetic nervous system and good old Amy(gdala) thinks I’m in constant danger. My emotions are all over the place. For a couple of hours yesterday I felt completely empty, then another torrent of emotions. Reading my previous post back, I’m aware that my current emotions […]
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Remembering Emotions As Waves
It still catches me by surprise how quickly my emotions can change from one minute, hour, week, to the next. When I wrote my last post I was in a pit of despair which had rolled over me while doing light exercise. Everything just suddenly seemed pointless, and didn’t have the strength or energy to […]
Journey Toward Healing 