Category: Depression
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Where Nothing Exists
Caught up in a place where only a part of me exists. There is no past. No future. Not even a “now”. “We could be stars if we could imagine life was real.” What does this even mean? I don’t know, but it makes sense somehow. To some distant entity within another part. The human […]
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Sleeping Sun
Things are changing again. It’s supposedly a good change, so why am I left so confused? What are all these feelings? A heaviness has settled deep inside my body and soul. The words are lost in my head; explanations and sense hidden. Why does it feel like my time is coming to an end?
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Angry and Alone
I’m so fucking angry that I feel like breaking everything in this damn house! Damn M for telling me when she did that I needed to move out, rather than listen to her psychiatrist and wait until my therapist is back! She was being so selfish. Now I’m alone here, looking after her dog (of […]
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Emmengard’s Suicide Scale
I’ve been dealing with suicidal ideation for the past two weeks. It varies in intensity, and aside from a few “happy” moments here and there, is almost constantly in the background. I try to keep myself distracted where I can. I’ve been going to group again, mostly because I feel it’s a source of support […]