Category: Therapy

• A Good Therapy Session

  I’m feeling a bit better today. Clearer. Less confused. Last night I went to group and during the break I saw C on her way out. I had been feeling a little overwhelmed during group, and without even thinking about it, I ran to catch up to her. I had no plan. So when the […]

  Rayne

  April 25, 2018

  Borderline Personality Disorder, Therapy

  Attachment, Borderline Personality Disorder, Connection, The Therapeutic Relationship, Therapy

• I Don’t Want to Hug You, But They Can’t Either

  Since the weekend I’ve started having stronger emotions coming to the forefront. Mostly sadness. I’ve contemplated getting into contact with Elizabeth again, thinking that maybe I’m ready to resume a friendship. I’ve been feeling the loss more. So maybe now isn’t such a great time. I’ve also been struggling with thoughts of “I made a […]

  Rayne

  April 19, 2018

  Relationships, Therapy

  Loneliness, Loss, Relationships, Therapist, Therapy

• Protected: A Heartbreaking, But (Relatively) Peaceful Decision

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  Rayne

  April 4, 2018

  Relationships, Therapy

  Decisions, Emptiness, Relationships, Self Care, The Therapeutic Relationship, Therapy

• Love In The Therapeutic Relationship

  Now this is an awkward topic, right? Which is why I haven’t written about it yet. I’ve been meaning to for quite a while now, but I couldn’t get myself to start. After the in-person session I had with my therapist last week Monday, I feel the time is right. There’s nothing strange with what […]

  Rayne

  July 28, 2017

  Relationships, Therapy

  Attachment, Connection, Love, The Therapeutic Relationship, Therapist, Therapy, Touch

• Dependence On Therapy

  Since we’ve started working together, my therapist has mentioned quite a few times, that she doesn’t want me to become dependent on therapy. Whenever she’d say that, I’d feel uncomfortable and get defensive. Even though she would tell me that she didn’t say I was dependent on it, I still took it as an attack. And I […]

  Rayne

  June 5, 2017

  Therapy

  Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Growth, Healing, Life, Mental Health, Psychology, Reflection, Shame, Structure, Support, The Therapeutic Relationship, Therapist, Therapy, Thoughts

• The Breakdown And Recovery

  It happened. As you know from my previous few posts, I’ve been in a very dark place. Thoughts of suicide overtaking everything, and coming to a head on Friday evening. Obsessive thoughts of death and dying. Over and over again. Pain so intense, memories so vivid. It felt as though I had hit rock bottom. […]

  Rayne

  April 25, 2017

  Borderline Personality Disorder, Therapy

  Bond, BPD, Breakdown, Compassion, Connection, Death, Dissociation, Embarrassment, Emotions, Shame, Suicide, The Therapeutic Relationship, Therapist