Journey Toward Healing

The Many Faces Of Emptiness

One of the criteria for Borderline Personality Disorder according to the DSM-IV is: “chronic feelings of emptiness” “Yes, I get that. But how does it feel?” A friend asked me the other day. Good question. How does it feel? Can it even be felt? Doesn’t the very definition suggest “blankness”? Yet, it can most certainly be “felt” […]

Rayne

May 8, 2016

Borderline Personality Disorder

Awareness, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Emptiness, Mental Health, Photography, Psychology, Writing
When Words Fail

Some days we just don’t have the words. Some days we just don’t have the strength. And sometimes a song can speak for us. This is one of those times. “Breathe Me” Lyrics: Help, I have done it again I have been here many times before Hurt myself again today And the worst part is […]

Rayne

May 4, 2016

Music

Borderline Personality Disorder, Feeling Lost, Fragile, Hurt, Inner Child, Loneliness, Mental Health, Music
Dream: The Girl

I walk into the living room. It’s a mess. Broken plates and mugs scattered everywhere. The electronic equipment all but destroyed. The room is filled with people. As they notice me standing there, they start shouting and laughing at me. Some whispering among themselves. Shame and embarrassment settles over me. Then, the anger comes. Surging through […]

Rayne

May 1, 2016

Dreams

Anger, Borderline Personality Disorder, Depression, Dreams, Embarrassment, Fear, Inner Child, Mental Health, Shame
The Dream And A Missing Psychologist

I find dreams fascinating. Even nightmares. Growing up, I had a few recurrent dreams. They have stuck with me through the years, and every once in a while (very rarely at least) I have one of them again. I’ll write about each one sometime. Now, I have a new dream. I’ve had it only once […]

Rayne

April 28, 2016

Dreams

Abandonment, Anxiety, Attachment, Awareness, Borderline Personality Disorder, Dreams, Fear, Fear Of Abandonment, Frustration, Loneliness, Mental Health, Nightmares, Obsessive Attachments, Psychologist, Rejection, Relationships, The Therapeutic Relationship, Therapist, Therapy
The Challenge And Necessity Of Being Good to Ourselves

My psychologist shared this quote online, and it’s been at the back of my mind since I saw it. I was approached by one of my male friends a few weeks ago. Someone I’d known for a number of years. We’ve never been close, but the friendship had its merits. He asked me to take […]

Rayne

April 27, 2016

Inspiration

Anger, Awareness, Borderline Personality Disorder, DBT, Dialectical Behavior Therapy, Emptiness, Friendship, Frustration, Inspiration, Kindness, Loss, Mental Health, Needs, Psychologist, Relationships, Self Harm, Skills, Stress
Gone

I wish I could make myself disappear. It’s all too much. I want to sleep and never wake up. A darkness so thick and overwhelming I don’t know where I am. I’ve been trusting these past few weeks. Far too trusting. Now wounds have been opened, and attempts to close them are not working. I […]

Rayne

April 24, 2016

Depression

Anxiety, Borderline Personality Disorder, Broken, Depression, Despair, Emotional Abuse, Feeling Lost, Hopelessness, Loneliness, Mental Health, Negativity, Suicidal Ideation, Trust, Walls

The Many Faces Of Emptiness

When Words Fail

Dream: The Girl

The Dream And A Missing Psychologist

The Challenge And Necessity Of Being Good to Ourselves

Gone