Tag: Abandonment

• Lashing Out

  Dear Therapist I lashed out at you when you were three minutes late for our session. I know it’s not an excuse, but I wasn’t in a very good place, so those three minutes felt a lot longer. Thank you for validating that it’s a big deal for me, and for your apology. I know […]

  Rayne

  February 14, 2017

  Borderline Personality Disorder

  Abandonment, Anger, Attachment, Behaviour, Black & White Thinking, BPD, Commitment, Communication, Connection, Embarrassment, Emotional Dysregulation, Emotions, Fear, Fear Of Abandonment, Insecurity, Letter, Mental Health, Panic, Relationships, The Therapeutic Relationship, Therapist, Therapy, Transference

• Just A Burden

  Being ignored. The story of my life. But do you think I’m used to it? No, it still fucking hurts. I’m the odd one out. I’m the one whose voice doesn’t matter. Who doesn’t get asked whether I want to do something with them… Only to find out that day, from my uncle (not even […]

  Rayne

  January 6, 2017

  Relationships

  Abandonment, Anger, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Depression, Disconnection, Emotional Dysregulation, Emotions, Family, Frustration, Hatred, Hurt, Inner Child, Insecurity, Irritability, Life, Loneliness, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Needs, Rage, Relationships, Sadness, Sensitivity, Shame, Vulnerability

• Fighting For Air

  This time of year, I feel the grief of everyone I have lost through the years. Too many people. Some gone too soon. Others leaving a broken heart in their shadows as they walk away. Tonight is one of those moments of intense grief. Memories drifting through my mind. The pain and hurt proving that I’m […]

  Rayne

  December 14, 2016

  Depression

  Abandonment, Anger, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Broken, Depression, Despair, Goodbye’s, Grief, Hurt, Life, Loss, Memories, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Missing Someone, Overwhelmed, Relationships, Sadness, Suicidal Ideation, The Past

• Protected: Already Missing Her

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  Rayne

  December 7, 2016

  Therapy

  Abandonment, Anxiety, Attachment, Bond, Borderline Personality Disorder, Boundaries, BPD, Connection, Depression, Despair, Fear, Fear Of Abandonment, Fragile, Goodbye’s, Hurt, Idealization, Life, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Missing Someone, Nightmares, Object Constancy, Obsessive Attachments, Psychologist, Relationships, Sadness, Skills, The Therapeutic Relationship, Therapist, Therapy, Therapy Break, Trust

• Why

  This is a letter I wrote a few years ago, for a friend of mine who ended his life when we were 19 years old. I’m hoping that sending this out into the universe will help me let go. Dear M, You were one of my closest friends that year. Standing on the balcony, without […]

  Rayne

  November 25, 2016

  Life

  Abandonment, Anger, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Broken, Confusion, Death, Depression, Despair, Emptiness, Friendship, Goodbye’s, Grief, Guilt, Hurt, Letter, Life, Loss, Memories, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Missing Someone, Regret, Relationships, Sadness, Suicide, The Past, Trauma

• Footprints

  When I first heard this song a few days ago, it brought to mind my relationship with my therapist. It’s strange how I seem to be able to connect a lot of things to therapy. Because of the boundaries that exist in any therapy relationship, there have been times where I felt like my therapist […]

  Rayne

  November 22, 2016

  Therapy

  Abandonment, Anxiety, Attachment, Bond, Borderline Personality Disorder, Boundaries, BPD, Commitment, Connection, Fear, Fear Of Abandonment, Insecurity, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Music, Object Constancy, Obsessive Attachments, Panic, Psychologist, Relationships, Sadness, Self Care, The Therapeutic Relationship, Therapist, Therapy, Therapy Break, Trust