Tag: Anger

• Bleeding and Beaten Down

  You’ve lied to me enough. I won’t trust a word you say. You’ve hurt me enough. This was the final straw. Now I’m taking my love back. You broke it. You lost. You managed to knock me down hard. But I’m strong. You won’t destroy me. And I’m going to get back up.

  Rayne

  March 22, 2018

  Relationships

  Anger, Fighter, Heartbreak, Love, Rejection, Relationships

• Emotional Rollercoaster

  Early morning: Had a nightmare that my girlfriend and I broke up. Woke up with a sigh of relief “whew, it was only a dream.” A few minutes later: Wait, no, it wasn’t just a dream. A punch in the gut. Overpowering sadness and pain. Physical chest pain also present. About an hour later: Numb. Dissociated. […]

  Rayne

  February 21, 2018

  Borderline Personality Disorder

  Anger, Borderline Personality Disorder, Depression, Emotions, Heartbreak, Hypomania

• Protected: To The Man Who Raised Me

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  Rayne

  May 25, 2017

  Borderline Personality Disorder, Relationships

  Anger, Attachment, Broken, Depression, Family, Fear, Feeling Stuck, Flashbacks, Hatred, Letter, Love, Memories, Narcissist, Overwhelmed, Survival, Toxic Relationships, Trauma

• Lashing Out

  Dear Therapist I lashed out at you when you were three minutes late for our session. I know it’s not an excuse, but I wasn’t in a very good place, so those three minutes felt a lot longer. Thank you for validating that it’s a big deal for me, and for your apology. I know […]

  Rayne

  February 14, 2017

  Borderline Personality Disorder

  Abandonment, Anger, Attachment, Behaviour, Black & White Thinking, BPD, Commitment, Communication, Connection, Embarrassment, Emotional Dysregulation, Emotions, Fear, Fear Of Abandonment, Insecurity, Letter, Mental Health, Panic, Relationships, The Therapeutic Relationship, Therapist, Therapy, Transference

• Just A Burden

  Being ignored. The story of my life. But do you think I’m used to it? No, it still fucking hurts. I’m the odd one out. I’m the one whose voice doesn’t matter. Who doesn’t get asked whether I want to do something with them… Only to find out that day, from my uncle (not even […]

  Rayne

  January 6, 2017

  Relationships

  Abandonment, Anger, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Depression, Disconnection, Emotional Dysregulation, Emotions, Family, Frustration, Hatred, Hurt, Inner Child, Insecurity, Irritability, Life, Loneliness, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Needs, Rage, Relationships, Sadness, Sensitivity, Shame, Vulnerability

• Fighting For Air

  This time of year, I feel the grief of everyone I have lost through the years. Too many people. Some gone too soon. Others leaving a broken heart in their shadows as they walk away. Tonight is one of those moments of intense grief. Memories drifting through my mind. The pain and hurt proving that I’m […]

  Rayne

  December 14, 2016

  Depression

  Abandonment, Anger, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Broken, Depression, Despair, Goodbye’s, Grief, Hurt, Life, Loss, Memories, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Missing Someone, Overwhelmed, Relationships, Sadness, Suicidal Ideation, The Past