Tag: Black & White Thinking

• Lashing Out

  Dear Therapist I lashed out at you when you were three minutes late for our session. I know it’s not an excuse, but I wasn’t in a very good place, so those three minutes felt a lot longer. Thank you for validating that it’s a big deal for me, and for your apology. I know…

  Rayne

  February 14, 2017

  Borderline Personality Disorder

  Abandonment, Anger, Attachment, Behaviour, Black & White Thinking, BPD, Commitment, Communication, Connection, Embarrassment, Emotional Dysregulation, Emotions, Fear, Fear Of Abandonment, Insecurity, Letter, Mental Health, Panic, Relationships, The Therapeutic Relationship, Therapist, Therapy, Transference

• Taking Responsibility For My Own Insecurites

  There are times where I find myself feeling insecure about the smallest things. Only, these things aren’t so small to me in the moment. During these times, I see them as something that threatens my very happiness, sanity and survival. For example, if someone doesn’t respond the right way to a text or email. Often…

  Rayne

  December 20, 2016

  Borderline Personality Disorder

  Behaviour, Black & White Thinking, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Emotional Dysregulation, Emotions, Fear, Fear Of Abandonment, Insecurity, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Object Constancy, Panic, Reflection, Relationships, Sensitivity, Skills, Thoughts

• Protected: A Fragile State

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  Rayne

  December 1, 2016

  Borderline Personality Disorder

  Anger, Behaviour, Black & White Thinking, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Depression, Emotional Dysregulation, Fear Of Abandonment, Fragile, Hopelessness, Hurt, Insecurity, Life, Meltdown, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Rage, Relationships, Sadness, Sensitivity, Studies, Suicidal Ideation

• Interview Panic Sets In

  I have an interview with one of my agents tomorrow (who I haven’t met in person yet). He put my resume forward for a position at a relatively large company. The company expressed interest, but I first need to have an interview with my agent tomorrow. If he thinks I’m a good candidate for the job,…

  Rayne

  November 28, 2016

  Borderline Personality Disorder

  Anxiety, Black & White Thinking, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Confusion, Depression, Despair, Fear, Feeling Stuck, Hopelessness, Insecurity, Life, Meltdown, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Overwhelmed, Panic, Work

• Being My Own Friend

  During my therapy session yesterday, I was highly annoyed with myself. I told my therapist that I feel I should be better by now. That I should just get over everything and move on. She told me that I’m very harsh on myself, and set very high expectations. That’s very true. I’m my own worst…

  Rayne

  September 13, 2016

  Therapy

  Attachment, Behaviour, Black & White Thinking, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Change, Communication, DBT, Dialectical Behavior Therapy, Disconnection, Encouragement, Fear Of Abandonment, Healing, Insecurity, Inspiration, Kindness, Life, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Object Constancy, Obsessive Attachments, Psychologist, Psychology, Reflection, Relationships, Self Care, Skills, Splitting, Structure, The Therapeutic Relationship, Therapist, Transference

• The Rage Inside

  I’m so insanely angry, and I’m not even entirely sure where it’s coming from. I feel anger about everything and nothing at the same time. I haven’t felt this intense feeling of utter rage and hatred in years. I want to scream at the top of my lungs, set fire to buildings, start a fight…

  Rayne

  August 15, 2016

  Borderline Personality Disorder

  Anger, Black & White Thinking, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Frustration, Hatred, Irritability, Meltdown, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Rage