Tag: Borderline Personality Disorder
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Why I Won’t Be Reaching Out Again
It was my birthday just recently, and I had a bit of a “mid-life crisis” that day. Panicking that I’m in my middle 30’s and still living with parents, and that it seems things will never get better. It doesn’t help that I’ve been in a depressive phase as it is for the past while.…
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Getting There
Yesterday was a better day. This roller coaster I’ve been on seems to be slowing down. I’m not off the ride just yet, but the slower speed is a relief. I’m proud of myself for one thing at least. Instead of doing what I would usually do, which is self-medicate with my benzo’s (more than…
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Comparing Therapists
I know it’s something I shouldn’t do. It’s something I didn’t want to ever do. Yet, I find myself doing that very thing sometimes. As my regular readers and those who have followed my blog for some time know, I changed therapists earlier this year. You can read this post if you want to know…
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Confusion
Don’t touch me. Please hold my hand. Leave me alone. Please stay. I hate you! I love you! How can all of these kinds of conflicting thoughts and feelings exist in a person at the same time?
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“Be Kind To Yourself”
These were the words spoken to me by my therapist yesterday. I’m struggling, a lot, and needed that reminder. It’s times like this that I’m especially grateful for therapy and a great therapist. My inner critic has been especially boisterous this past while, as have the critical voices from my childhood and beyond. Every attempt…
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The Place Of Emptiness, Apathy And No Purpose
I just finished an amazing book by Donna Tartt titled The Goldfinch, and want to share a paragraph from it that sums up my feelings (and opinion) about life. “Because I don’t care what anyone says or how often or winningly they say it: no one will ever, ever be able to persuade me that…
Journey Toward Healing 