Tag: Borderline Personality Disorder

• The Photo That Made Me Smile Today

  I haven’t written about it, but last week was a difficult one for me, with BPD and PTSD symptoms in full swing. It’s hard enough dealing with one of those things, but together? At a few points I literally thought I was going to die, or that I was busy dying. Unless you’ve experienced something…

  Rayne

  July 11, 2018

  Mental Health

  Borderline Personality Disorder, Dog, Golden Retriever, Happiness, Mental Health, PTSD, Therapy

• Building The Therapeutic Relationship

  My therapy session last week Wednesday marked a turning point in my relationship with my new therapist. I usually do 30 minute sessions with her, as that way I’m able to see her every week. But I wasn’t ready to leave this time… I wasn’t in a good space. So she said we could stretch…

  Rayne

  May 9, 2018

  Borderline Personality Disorder, Therapy

  Anger, Attachment, Borderline Personality Disorder, Emotional Dysregulation, Mental Health, The Therapeutic Relationship, Therapy

• BPD Got Me

  Friday night I had a full on BPD moment. For the first time in many months, I experienced intense, extremely painful emotions. DBT skills out the window- Distress Tolerance, what’s that? How do I do that? My cognitive functioning was severely impaired, and the only way I could think of to cope was through self-harm…

  Rayne

  May 6, 2018

  Borderline Personality Disorder

  Borderline Personality Disorder, Depression, Emotional Dysregulation

• A Good Therapy Session

  I’m feeling a bit better today. Clearer. Less confused. Last night I went to group and during the break I saw C on her way out. I had been feeling a little overwhelmed during group, and without even thinking about it, I ran to catch up to her. I had no plan. So when the…

  Rayne

  April 25, 2018

  Borderline Personality Disorder, Therapy

  Attachment, Borderline Personality Disorder, Connection, The Therapeutic Relationship, Therapy

• Emotional Rollercoaster

  Early morning: Had a nightmare that my girlfriend and I broke up. Woke up with a sigh of relief “whew, it was only a dream.” A few minutes later: Wait, no, it wasn’t just a dream. A punch in the gut. Overpowering sadness and pain. Physical chest pain also present. About an hour later: Numb. Dissociated.…

  Rayne

  February 21, 2018

  Borderline Personality Disorder

  Anger, Borderline Personality Disorder, Depression, Emotions, Heartbreak, Hypomania

• A Bad Weekend

  One of the criteria in the DSM for Borderline PD: 9. TRANSIENT, STRESS-RELATED PARANOID IDEAS OR SEVERE DISSOCIATIVE SYMPTOMS. I posted a “poem” the other day (can’t remember when exactly), and removed it at some point. I kept thinking that the person that post was inspired by would somehow come across it. Actually, I was…

  Rayne

  January 29, 2018

  Borderline Personality Disorder

  Anxiety, Borderline Personality Disorder, Dissociation, Feeling Lost, Paranoia, Relationships