A Lifeline

Last week my therapist cancelled our session due to a personal loss. My heart went out to her. It was a strange experience. Usually a cancellation would trigger my abandonment issues. But this time all I could think and feel was an intense sadness for her. What this cancellation means to me didn’t even enterContinue reading “A Lifeline”

Getting There

Yesterday was a better day. This roller coaster I’ve been on seems to be slowing down. I’m not off the ride just yet, but the slower speed is a relief. I’m proud of myself for one thing at least. Instead of doing what I would usually do, which is self-medicate with my benzo’s (more thanContinue reading “Getting There”

“She’s Gone Forever”

My therapist went on leave for two weeks. I knew about this for two weeks before her break, and during that time, I didn’t think much about it. More importantly, I didn’t know how I felt about it. Like I told her in our session two weeks ago, I’m happy that she’s making time forContinue reading ““She’s Gone Forever””

Social Anxiety, Embarrassment And Shame

In my previous post I mentioned how I had felt better on Friday. But that only lasted until Saturday evening. That evening I went to Jasmine’s birthday dinner. There were 10 of us. Two of my friends (I’ve been friends with one of them for over 21 years) had also been invited, since they’re nowContinue reading “Social Anxiety, Embarrassment And Shame”