Tag: BPD
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On Fighting And Survival
I received a letter tonight, containing diary entries and poems from my ex. “A goodbye letter”, she called it. We’ve been communicating almost every day, but now that’s over. She’s stopped all communication between us, and removed me from her social media. I understand why she had to do it. I just thought we could […]
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“It Isn’t Real”
Sitting on the beach this afternoon, it suddenly hit me. The theme of my life seems to be “it isn’t real”. Another piece of my puzzle put into place. It’s nice to know that I’m not the only one who experiences the sense of being unreal. Like a ghost wandering through this world, while everything goes […]
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From The Deep: Why Can’t The Past Just Stay In The Past?
It’s been one of those days. Where old hurts that I hadn’t even remembered in years came flooding back. Where people I had forgotten about, reappeared in my mind. Trying to push it aside. Trying to forget again. This pain is too much. I don’t want to feel it. Yet I do feel it. And […]
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The Many Faces Of Emptiness
One of the criteria for Borderline Personality Disorder according to the DSM-IV is: “chronic feelings of emptiness” “Yes, I get that. But how does it feel?” A friend asked me the other day. Good question. How does it feel? Can it even be felt? Doesn’t the very definition suggest “blankness”? Yet, it can most certainly be “felt” […]