Tag: Darkness
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Sleeping Sun
Things are changing again. It’s supposedly a good change, so why am I left so confused? What are all these feelings? A heaviness has settled deep inside my body and soul. The words are lost in my head; explanations and sense hidden. Why does it feel like my time is coming to an end?
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Getting Me Through
This isn’t my usual type of music, but it’s helping me provide release for my emotions and all I feel, without hurting myself, and is keeping the suicidal thoughts at bay. The music that usually helps me get through dark times just isn’t cutting it this time. The intensity of this song so perfectly captures…
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Alone
Did a photo shoot for some friends. Wasn’t up for it. Depressed. Did it anyway. They seemed to be having fun. I was on autopilot. Tried to have fun. It wasn’t happening. Went out for coffee with them afterward. Felt empty. Could barely talk. Good thing they seemed to be talking among themselves enough for…
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A Permanent Solution
They say “suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem”. A temporary problem? How about years of “temporary problems”? Being hit time and time again. It’s not just one problem that pushes most people off the edge. It’s the problems that we’re stuck in for weeks, months, years. It all adds up. What then if…
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This Unwelcome Feeling
This unwelcome feeling seeps into my soul. Where did it come from, and will it ever go? It’s not a thought, nor is it really a desire. It’s a feeling that haunts me day by day. Constantly lurking in the shadows. It’s presence can be felt even on the best days. I can’t stand feeling…
Journey Toward Healing 