Life feels strange these days. The world, a different place. It seems we’re all just trying to survive and not really living. I’ve been trying to keep a semblance of normality in my own life, but it’s not that easy when most things have changed. As I mentioned in my previous post, I’m now stayingContinue reading “In A Different World”
Things are changing again. It’s supposedly a good change, so why am I left so confused? What are all these feelings? A heaviness has settled deep inside my body and soul. The words are lost in my head; explanations and sense hidden. Why does it feel like my time is coming to an end?
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I’m so fucking angry that I feel like breaking everything in this damn house! Damn M for telling me when she did that I needed to move out, rather than listen to her psychiatrist and wait until my therapist is back! She was being so selfish. Now I’m alone here, looking after her dog (ofContinue reading “Angry and Alone”
Two Thursday’s ago I went out for dinner with my best friends’ Megan and Ethan. We had a lovely time. Ethan invited me to a pizza evening that Saturday, and Megan, knowing me really well by now, told him that it might be too much for me. There were going to be 4 other peopleContinue reading “But I’m Not Like You”
I’ve been dealing with suicidal ideation for the past two weeks. It varies in intensity, and aside from a few “happy” moments here and there, is almost constantly in the background. I try to keep myself distracted where I can. I’ve been going to group again, mostly because I feel it’s a source of supportContinue reading “Emmengard’s Suicide Scale”