Tag: Despair

• The Cliff

  I didn’t want to write on my blog ever again. But here I am. Don’t have the energy to write much. Will write more about what’s been going on at another time. Just need to get this out of my head. Standing on a high cliff. I had climbed up that cliff with the help of…

  Rayne

  July 17, 2017

  Depression

  Borderline Personality Disorder, Despair, Feeling Lost, Feeling Stuck, Loneliness, Suicidal Ideation

• Protected: 24 Hours With BPD During A Crisis Phase

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  Rayne

  June 11, 2017

  Borderline Personality Disorder

  Anxiety, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Breakdown, Burn Out, Crisis, Depression, Despair, Dissociation, Emotional Dysregulation, Fear Of Abandonment, Self Care, Self Harm, Suicide, Work

• I Want It To Stop

  The excruciating physical pain I’ve been in this week has subsided quite a bit. It’s not as unbearable as it was. But the emotional pain has stuck around. In my previous post, I wrote how I feel like crying when thinking about the next day, week, etc. But now, its escalated into panic. How the…

  Rayne

  May 20, 2017

  Borderline Personality Disorder, Trauma

  Depression, Despair, Emotional Dysregulation, Flashbacks, Inner Child, Loneliness, Memories, Music, Nightmares, Panic, The Past, Therapist

• The Void

  Deep Dark The void cannot be seen It can only be felt Cold, dead hand reaching Deep down inside Drawing out the life A life that never existed Desperate Hopeless Empty space all around The untouchable

  Rayne

  March 22, 2017

  Depression

  Depression, Despair, Loneliness, Poetry, Sadness, Suicidal Ideation, Writing

• Emotion

  I don’t always have the words to express my feelings. During such moments, I either find a song to represent how I’m feeling, or I make collages in Photoshop such as this one. I search for images that relate to how I’m feeling. Images that I connect with on a deep level, and then add some…

  Rayne

  March 14, 2017

  Depression, Therapy

  Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Communication, Depression, Despair, Emotions, Fragile, Heartbreak, Inner Child, Thoughts, Vulnerability

• Where The Dreamers Lie

  She will escape to a place where the dreamers lie Those who dreamed to escape the darkness of life Now peaceful, calm and far from this world of pain Dreams that mean nothing, dreams that only hurt This daydreamer can’t dream anymore. She’s lost Her dreams are empty. She has nothing left to give Her…

  Rayne

  March 8, 2017

  Depression

  Darkness, Depression, Despair, Emptiness, Hopelessness, Suicidal Ideation