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Can’t face the world. Want to disappear. Can’t face those you most want to connect with – wanting to push them away – already feeling as though you have done something wrong in the relationship and that it’s not fixable. Pulling away and disconnecting feels like the only possible thing left to do. Being inContinue reading “What Shame Looks & Feels Like”
There are times where I feel nothing for people. Not even those I “claim” to love. This can last from hours to weeks. Sometimes I wonder whether I really do love after all? Then there are moments where I know I love that person/those people and I feel it, but that feeling can come andContinue reading “Do I Really Love?”
It still catches me by surprise how quickly my emotions can change from one minute, hour, week, to the next. When I wrote my last post I was in a pit of despair which had rolled over me while doing some movement and muscle exercises (sensory integration stuff). Everything just suddenly seemed pointless, and didn’tContinue reading “Remembering Emotions As Waves”
Early morning: Had a nightmare that my girlfriend and I broke up. Woke up with a sigh of relief “whew, it was only a dream.” A few minutes later: Wait, no, it wasn’t just a dream. A punch in the gut. Overpowering sadness and pain. Physical chest pain also present. About an hour later: Numb. Dissociated.Continue reading “Emotional Rollercoaster”
I’ve been feeling worried, anxious, confused, and overwhelmed for the past few weeks. I thought I’ve been handling it pretty well. Using CBT, REBT and DBT skills to stay afloat. But today… Today came the final blow. And I need to protect myself and just. stop. feeling. So right now I give myself permission toContinue reading “Numb The Feelings”