Tag: Emotions
-
Emotional Rollercoaster
Early morning: Had a nightmare that my girlfriend and I broke up. Woke up with a sigh of relief “whew, it was only a dream.” A few minutes later: Wait, no, it wasn’t just a dream. A punch in the gut. Overpowering sadness and pain. Physical chest pain also present. About an hour later: Numb. Dissociated. […]
-
Numb The Feelings
I’ve been feeling worried, anxious, confused, and overwhelmed for the past few weeks. I thought I’ve been handling it pretty well. Using CBT, REBT and DBT skills to stay afloat. But today… Today came the final blow. And I need to protect myself and just. stop. feeling. So right now I give myself permission to […]
-
Riding The Waves
I found myself starting to feel irritable this morning, but can’t pinpoint exactly when, or why, it started. On the way to a meeting with my business partner, my irritation only grew. There had been an accident on the road, and the cars were barely moving. Sitting in traffic amps up my anxiety for some […]
-
A Heavy Heart
It’s been a tough couple of weeks. Seeing my ex again affected me so much more than I expected. I didn’t actually think it would affect me at all. But what gave her closure, opened up old wounds in me. Wounds, I realized, I had just placed a band-aid over. Leaving the relationship was hard. […]
-
Getting Me Through
This isn’t my usual type of music, but it’s helping me provide release for my emotions and all I feel, without hurting myself, and is keeping the suicidal thoughts at bay. The music that usually helps me get through dark times just isn’t cutting it this time. The intensity of this song so perfectly captures […]
-
Safe Travels – Part Two
You can read part one here. The Sunday of that week, I was due to leave my mom’s place and drive almost two hours away, to the small town that I lived in with my ex-girlfriend (or fiance if you want to get technical) for almost 4 years. This place holds a lot of meaning […]
Journey Toward Healing 