My days feel meaningless. So does my life. No matter what I do, where I go, it’s there. The emptiness. Spending time with my regular two friends isn’t the same. Whereas before that would give me a mood boost, it does nothing for me anymore. I feel okay with them in the moment, but there’sContinue reading “A Day Has No Meaning Anymore”
Caught up in a place where only a part of me exists. There is no past. No future. Not even a “now”. “We could be stars if we could imagine life was real.” What does this even mean? I don’t know, but it makes sense somehow. To some distant entity within another part. The humanContinue reading “Where Nothing Exists”
Since the post I wrote on meeting up with Elizabeth again earlier this year, I’ve seen her a few more times. We always end up staying together for hours. But I’ve realized something. I don’t have feelings for her at all anymore. The times we meet up, I’ve initiated it. It’s on my terms. WeContinue reading “Is This Who I Am Now?”
A comment by one of my blogger friends reminded me of this post. It was one of the first I published on this blog so most of you wouldn’t have read it. I’m also reblogging it because I needed that message today.
I just finished an amazing book by Donna Tartt titled The Goldfinch, and want to share a paragraph from it that sums up my feelings (and opinion) about life. “Because I don’t care what anyone says or how often or winningly they say it: no one will ever, ever be able to persuade me thatContinue reading “The Place Of Emptiness, Apathy And No Purpose”
I’m done wishing and hoping… For the friend I can rely on. For the university qualification and job I’ve always wanted. For the love that will stick around. For the dog I long to be a home for. For the freedom and security I strive for. That this idea just might be the one toContinue reading “Caught Out In The Rainstorm”