Tag: Emptiness
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A Day Has No Meaning Anymore
My days feel meaningless. So does my life. No matter what I do, where I go, it’s there. The emptiness. Spending time with my regular two friends isn’t the same. Whereas before that would give me a mood boost, it does nothing for me anymore. I feel okay with them in the moment, but there’s…
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Where Nothing Exists
Caught up in a place where only a part of me exists. There is no past. No future. Not even a “now”. “We could be stars if we could imagine life was real.” What does this even mean? I don’t know, but it makes sense somehow. To some distant entity within another part. The human…
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Is This Who I Am Now?
Since the post I wrote on meeting up with Elizabeth again earlier this year, I’ve seen her a few more times. We always end up staying together for hours. But I’ve realized something. I don’t have feelings for her at all anymore. The times we meet up, I’ve initiated it. It’s on my terms. We…
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The Place Of Emptiness, Apathy And No Purpose
I just finished an amazing book by Donna Tartt titled The Goldfinch, and want to share a paragraph from it that sums up my feelings (and opinion) about life. “Because I don’t care what anyone says or how often or winningly they say it: no one will ever, ever be able to persuade me that…
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Caught Out In The Rainstorm
I’m done wishing and hoping… For the friend I can rely on. For the university qualification and job I’ve always wanted. For the love that will stick around. For the dog I long to be a home for. For the freedom and security I strive for. That this idea just might be the one to…
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Adulting is Hard
Another project done and dusted. I made it through a tough job with the most difficult client I’ve had (so far). I thought I’d be over the moon. I usually feel good afterward. But this time? I felt nothing for the first couple of days, and didn’t know what to do with myself. And now…
Journey Toward Healing 