A Day Has No Meaning Anymore

My days feel meaningless. So does my life. No matter what I do, where I go, it’s there. The emptiness. Spending time with my regular two friends isn’t the same. Whereas before that would give me a mood boost, it does nothing for me anymore. I feel okay with them in the moment, but there’sContinue reading “A Day Has No Meaning Anymore”

Is This Who I Am Now?

Since the post I wrote on meeting up with Elizabeth again earlier this year, I’ve seen her a few more times. We always end up staying together for hours. But I’ve realized something. I don’t have feelings for her at all anymore. The times we meet up, I’ve initiated it. It’s on my terms. WeContinue reading “Is This Who I Am Now?”

The Place Of Emptiness, Apathy And No Purpose

I just finished an amazing book by Donna Tartt titled The Goldfinch, and want to share a paragraph from it that sums up my feelings (and opinion) about life. “Because I don’t care what anyone says or how often or winningly they say it: no one will ever, ever be able to persuade me thatContinue reading “The Place Of Emptiness, Apathy And No Purpose”

Caught Out In The Rainstorm

I’m done wishing and hoping… For the friend I can rely on. For the university qualification and job I’ve always wanted. For the love that will stick around. For the dog I long to be a home for. For the freedom and security I strive for. That this idea just might be the one toContinue reading “Caught Out In The Rainstorm”