Tag: Exhaustion

• Withdrawal

  I’m not doing as well as I had been over the past few weeks. I’ve started the process of tapering down my mood stabilizer, Lamotrigine. The side effects started to outweigh the benefits (one of the side effects was especially worrying)… Which I’m not happy about, because it worked so well as a mood stabilizer.…

  Rayne

  September 19, 2017

  Borderline Personality Disorder, Life

  Depression, Exhaustion, Medication, Mental Health, Mood, Relationships

• Protected: A Long, Hard Week

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  Rayne

  April 17, 2017

  Relationships

  Connection, Emotions, Exhaustion, Family, Fear, Flashbacks, Memories, Occupational Therapist, Panic, Protective, Suicidal Ideation, The Past, Therapist

• Darkness, Please Leave Me Alone

  I’ve been trying to come up with something positive and inspirational to write on my blog for a change again. But no matter how much I try, I can’t grab a hold of anything. And you know what? I feel incredibly guilty about that. My whole life, my mission has been to help and inspire…

  Rayne

  January 16, 2017

  Depression

  Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Darkness, Depression, Disconnection, Emptiness, Exhaustion, Guilt, Hopelessness, Life, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Struggle, Tired

• Crash & Burn

  I’m at breaking point. I haven’t been in this place in a very long time, and I almost didn’t notice the signs. They’ve have been there for months, slowly building up. My previous post “It’s So Dark” is a good indication of where I’m at, but it’s all come to a head now. I’m crashing, and if…

  Rayne

  December 28, 2016

  Depression

  Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Depression, Disconnection, Exhaustion, Feeling Lost, Feeling Stuck, Life, Meltdown, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Needs, Self Care, Tired, Vulnerability

• It’s So Dark

  For the past week, I’ve been depressed most of the time. I can’t seem to shake it. I don’t even know where I am sometimes. I’m in a constant state of exhaustion. Feeling disconnected from everyone. I just want to be alone. It’s like someone else is living in my head, my body. Empty one…

  Rayne

  December 26, 2016

  Depression

  Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Darkness, Depression, Despair, Disconnection, Dissociation, Emptiness, Exhaustion, Feeling Lost, Feeling Stuck, Fragile, Hopelessness, Hurt, Life, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Numb, Suicidal Ideation, Tired, Vulnerability