Tag: Fear

• Under Again

  

  I’m so angry, I want to break and destroy things and certain people. My rage has been so intense and I don’t know any other way to release it in a satisfactory way, other than hurting myself. I haven’t seen my therapist in over two weeks, and won’t be seeing her tomorrow (and probably next…

  Rayne

  March 2, 2021

  Mental Health

  Anger, Breakdown, Disconnection, Family, Fear, Friends, Life, Loneliness, Uncertainty

• Nothing

  

  I started off good.Then came the panic.The fear.The fear happened. And they say fear isn’t the truth. Now I realize I’m not important.I don’t deserve the light after all. The love.I’m not good. I’m nothing.

  Rayne

  January 19, 2021

  Depression

  Anxiety, Attachment, Fear, Hopelessness, Insecurity, Isolation, Loneliness, Triggers

• Losing Control

  I’m fed up. The year has only begun, yet it feels like December all over again. I’m tired, stressed, and overwhelmed. January is a terrible time financially for most people. I’m feeling the pain of being broke right about now, and having debit orders bounce. I’m also having some family issues, and on the verge…

  Rayne

  January 3, 2018

  Borderline Personality Disorder

  Crisis, Fear, Frustration, Overwhelmed

• Protected: To The Man Who Raised Me

  There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

  Rayne

  May 25, 2017

  Borderline Personality Disorder, Relationships

  Anger, Attachment, Broken, Depression, Family, Fear, Feeling Stuck, Flashbacks, Hatred, Letter, Love, Memories, Narcissist, Overwhelmed, Survival, Toxic Relationships, Trauma

• Protection And Running Away

  This is a follow up from my previous post. After I had written it, and gone to sleep, I had a nightmare. Before I get into the dream, it needs to be said that most of my dreams over the years have followed a similar theme. They all involve me protecting others (or myself and…

  Rayne

  May 15, 2017

  Dreams, Life

  Awareness, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Depression, Dreams, Family, Fear, Grief, Inner Child, Little One, Nightmares, Protection, Recurrent Nightmares, Resilience, The Past, Trauma

• Selene

  I just sat down at my computer right now and thought that I want to write a post. But then I realized… I don’t have anything to write about. There’s nothing that I really want to say. Something just popped into my mind. Let me tell you about “Selene”. I’ve never told anyone about “her”.…

  Rayne

  May 6, 2017

  Life

  Anxiety, Fear, Protection