Tag: Fragile

• Alone

  Did a photo shoot for some friends. Wasn’t up for it. Depressed. Did it anyway. They seemed to be having fun. I was on autopilot. Tried to have fun. It wasn’t happening. Went out for coffee with them afterward. Felt empty. Could barely talk. Good thing they seemed to be talking among themselves enough for […]

  Rayne

  July 8, 2017

  Depression

  Borderline Personality Disorder, Darkness, Depression, Emptiness, Fragile, Friends, Life, Loneliness, Quiet, Sadness, Self-Soothing, Tired

• Emotion

  I don’t always have the words to express my feelings. During such moments, I either find a song to represent how I’m feeling, or I make collages in Photoshop such as this one. I search for images that relate to how I’m feeling. Images that I connect with on a deep level, and then add some […]

  Rayne

  March 14, 2017

  Depression, Therapy

  Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Communication, Depression, Despair, Emotions, Fragile, Heartbreak, Inner Child, Thoughts, Vulnerability

• Attachment: Here We Go Again

  I’ve gone and done it again. I got attached to someone else. My psychiatrist. When I first met her, that Friday that I booked myself into the clinic, I can’t remember most of our interaction. I saw her four more times after that, and didn’t know what to make of her. So there wasn’t an […]

  Rayne

  February 22, 2017

  Borderline Personality Disorder, Relationships

  Abandonment, Attachment, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Connection, Fear Of Abandonment, Fragile, Idealization, Inner Child, Kindness, Little One, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Object Constancy, Psychiatric Clinic, Psychiatrist, Relationships, Sadness, Vulnerability

• Never Thought I’d Be Here – Part One

  On Thursday morning I was reading something on the internet, when I started to feel uncomfortable. All of a sudden, that feeling erupted in a full on trigger. I immediately turned into a mess. I became that 14-year-old who had just been broken by someone she had looked up to and trusted. Images and emotions […]

  Rayne

  February 1, 2017

  Borderline Personality Disorder

  Anxiety, BPD, Comfort, Confusion, Connection, Dissociation, Emotional Dysregulation, Emotions, Fear, Feeling Lost, Flashbacks, Fragile, Inner Child, Insecurity, Meltdown, Memories, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Overwhelmed, Panic, Psychiatric Clinic, Psychiatrist, Psychologist, Shame, Struggle, The Therapeutic Relationship, Therapist, Trauma

• It’s So Dark

  For the past week, I’ve been depressed most of the time. I can’t seem to shake it. I don’t even know where I am sometimes. I’m in a constant state of exhaustion. Feeling disconnected from everyone. I just want to be alone. It’s like someone else is living in my head, my body. Empty one […]

  Rayne

  December 26, 2016

  Depression

  Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Darkness, Depression, Despair, Disconnection, Dissociation, Emptiness, Exhaustion, Feeling Lost, Feeling Stuck, Fragile, Hopelessness, Hurt, Life, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Numb, Suicidal Ideation, Tired, Vulnerability

• Protected: Already Missing Her

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  Rayne

  December 7, 2016

  Therapy

  Abandonment, Anxiety, Attachment, Bond, Borderline Personality Disorder, Boundaries, BPD, Connection, Depression, Despair, Fear, Fear Of Abandonment, Fragile, Goodbye’s, Hurt, Idealization, Life, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Missing Someone, Nightmares, Object Constancy, Obsessive Attachments, Psychologist, Relationships, Sadness, Skills, The Therapeutic Relationship, Therapist, Therapy, Therapy Break, Trust