Tag: Grief

• Broken Hearts

  If you’re reading these words… I wish I could take your tears away. I wish I could take away your hurt. I need you to know, that just because I wasn’t crying, didn’t mean I didn’t feel anything. I felt so much inside. I felt it all. I still do. I just didn’t know how…

  Rayne

  January 7, 2017

  Relationships

  Attachment, Borderline Personality Disorder, Broken, Change, Connection, Depression, Emotions, Emptiness, Grief, Hurt, Love, Missing Someone, Sadness

• Fighting For Air

  This time of year, I feel the grief of everyone I have lost through the years. Too many people. Some gone too soon. Others leaving a broken heart in their shadows as they walk away. Tonight is one of those moments of intense grief. Memories drifting through my mind. The pain and hurt proving that I’m…

  Rayne

  December 14, 2016

  Depression

  Abandonment, Anger, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Broken, Depression, Despair, Goodbye’s, Grief, Hurt, Life, Loss, Memories, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Missing Someone, Overwhelmed, Relationships, Sadness, Suicidal Ideation, The Past

• Why

  This is a letter I wrote a few years ago, for a friend of mine who ended his life when we were 19 years old. I’m hoping that sending this out into the universe will help me let go. Dear M, You were one of my closest friends that year. Standing on the balcony, without…

  Rayne

  November 25, 2016

  Life

  Abandonment, Anger, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Broken, Confusion, Death, Depression, Despair, Emptiness, Friendship, Goodbye’s, Grief, Guilt, Hurt, Letter, Life, Loss, Memories, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Missing Someone, Regret, Relationships, Sadness, Suicide, The Past, Trauma

• Warrior

  When I heard this song for the first time, I couldn’t stop the tears from falling. It felt like all the pain I had been holding deep inside me, just came pouring out. The most agonizing pain. The kind of pain that feels so raw. And like it will never end. This is one of those songs that seems as…

  Rayne

  October 29, 2016

  Borderline Personality Disorder

  BPD, Broken, Denial, Depression, Despair, Emotional Abuse, Fighter, Flashbacks, Grief, Healing, Hurt, Inner Child, Life, Little One, Loss, Memories, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Music, Nightmares, Resilience, Sadness, Sexual Abuse, Shame, Strength, Survival, The Past, Trauma, Warrior

• Feeling The Grief

  I’ve never liked that word. Grief. Even as I’m typing it out, I’m cringing inside. But as a friend recently told me, words are just that. Words. The morning after having written my post ‘Basking in the Sun‘, I woke up with this feeling of intense sadness. It’s followed me through the entire week, and…

  Rayne

  September 25, 2016

  Life

  Attachment, Awareness, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Broken, Change, Connection, Depersonalization, Depression, Derealization, Despair, Emptiness, Feeling Lost, Fragile, Friendship, Goodbye’s, Grief, Guilt, Happiness, Hopelessness, Hurt, Letting Go, Loss, Memories, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Missing Someone, Music, Overwhelmed, Relationships, Sadness, Struggle, The Future, The Past, Toxic Relationships, Vulnerability