Bleeding and Beaten Down
You’ve lied to me enough. I won’t trust a word you say. You’ve hurt me enough. This was the final straw. Now I’m taking my love back. You broke it. You lost. You managed to knock me down hard. But I’m strong. You won’t destroy me. And I’m going to get back up.
I guess I can’t say that I didn’t see this coming. But I didn’t believe that it would actually happen. As I mentioned in my previous post, Elizabeth and I broke up two weeks ago. She came over the Sunday evening and she asked me whether we could try starting over, and get back to…
Early morning: Had a nightmare that my girlfriend and I broke up. Woke up with a sigh of relief “whew, it was only a dream.” A few minutes later: Wait, no, it wasn’t just a dream. A punch in the gut. Overpowering sadness and pain. Physical chest pain also present. About an hour later: Numb. Dissociated.…
A Heavy Heart
It’s been a tough couple of weeks. Seeing my ex again affected me so much more than I expected. I didn’t actually think it would affect me at all. But what gave her closure, opened up old wounds in me. Wounds, I realized, I had just placed a band-aid over. Leaving the relationship was hard.…
Lonely tonight. I had her. I lost her. She let me go. She broke my heart. My first love. A love I never experienced before or since. There were others I thought I was in love with. I wasn’t. I was just infatuated for a short while. I had been fooling myself. But with her…
You feel a million miles away Each day drawing us further apart It seems we’re pushing one another away Then trying desperately to cling on Is there something left to save?