Tag: Idealization

• Now I’m Ready

  I’m glad I went to group tonight. It was lovely seeing so many familiar faces. Despite it all, I still feel at home at the clinic, which surprised me tonight. My favourite OT, D was leading the group tonight. I shut myself off from her in the beginning. I didn’t even look at her. In…

  Rayne

  January 9, 2018

  Borderline Personality Disorder

  Borderline Personality Disorder, Decisions, Devaluation, Idealization, Occupational Therapist, Support Group

• Attachment: Here We Go Again

  I’ve gone and done it again. I got attached to someone else. My psychiatrist. When I first met her, that Friday that I booked myself into the clinic, I can’t remember most of our interaction. I saw her four more times after that, and didn’t know what to make of her. So there wasn’t an…

  Rayne

  February 22, 2017

  Borderline Personality Disorder, Relationships

  Abandonment, Attachment, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Connection, Fear Of Abandonment, Fragile, Idealization, Inner Child, Kindness, Little One, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Object Constancy, Psychiatric Clinic, Psychiatrist, Relationships, Sadness, Vulnerability

• Protected: Already Missing Her

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  Rayne

  December 7, 2016

  Therapy

  Abandonment, Anxiety, Attachment, Bond, Borderline Personality Disorder, Boundaries, BPD, Connection, Depression, Despair, Fear, Fear Of Abandonment, Fragile, Goodbye’s, Hurt, Idealization, Life, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Missing Someone, Nightmares, Object Constancy, Obsessive Attachments, Psychologist, Relationships, Sadness, Skills, The Therapeutic Relationship, Therapist, Therapy, Therapy Break, Trust

• Protected: My Universe

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  Rayne

  November 12, 2016

  Relationships

  Attachment, Bond, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Change, Comfort, Commitment, Feeling Safe, Gratefulness, Healing, Hope, Idealization, Life, Love, Making Progress, New Beginnings, Positivity, Relationships, Soul, The Future, Trust, Writing

• What’s This Now? A Therapy Break?

  It was one of those therapy sessions where it felt like I was talking to a best friend. It flowed, conversation was easy and seemed effortless. Relationship with Therapist has been great. There was a little bit of a rupture a few weeks ago, but we got past that quickly. Thank god. But I learned…

  Rayne

  November 7, 2016

  Therapy

  Abandonment, Attachment, Bond, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Commitment, Communication, Connection, Depression, Disconnection, Fear Of Abandonment, Gratefulness, Idealization, Insecurity, Making Progress, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Needs, Object Constancy, Obsessive Attachments, Psychologist, Puzzle, Relationships, The Therapeutic Relationship, Therapist, Therapy, Therapy Break, Trust

• Insecurity, Hot On The Heels Of Vulnerability

  Therapy is hard sometimes. And yesterdays session was one of those. I’m always open during my sessions, and trust my therapist with things I can’t ever speak to anyone else about. She holds my secrets. But this one was particularly difficult for me. For some reason it felt like I was more exposed than ever…

  Rayne

  August 23, 2016

  Therapy

  Anger, Anxiety, Attachment, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Comfort, Connection, Devaluation, Disconnection, Embarrassment, Fear Of Abandonment, Fragile, Hurt, Idealization, Insecurity, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Object Constancy, Obsessive Attachments, Panic, Panic Attack, Psychologist, Relationships, Sensitivity, Shame, Stress, The Past, The Therapeutic Relationship, Therapist, Vulnerability, Walls