Tag: Medication
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Let Me Disappear
Right now I just want to disappear. I’m feeling overwhelmed, which is strange, since there isn’t actually anything that justifies having this feeling. I’m on leave until early January. I’ve finished up all the client projects I’ve been working on. Done and dusted. Yet, I feel this sense of dread. Impending doom. Why? I can’t…
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Moving Forward
Things feel different lately. I seem to have settled into myself and life as it currently is. Of course, that doesn’t mean that life is perfect and that I’m where I want to be. I’ve just made peace with where I currently find myself. There’s a difference between accepting where we are, with no intention…
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Life
The writing block I’ve been experiencing has lifted. It happened on Thursday after my therapy session. I had this desire to write a poem, and it just flowed so naturally again. And damn did it feel good. During our session I could actually feel some mental block crumbling. I managed to express myself relatively well,…
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Sinking
My mental health has deteriorated since having come off my mood stabilizer. I don’t feel like I’ve got a grasp on who I am today. I’m not one, I’m two, so closely bound, yet so very different. “Where are you today? You look weird, like you’re on a whole other planet.” Yes dad. I don’t…
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Withdrawal
I’m not doing as well as I had been over the past few weeks. I’ve started the process of tapering down my mood stabilizer, Lamotrigine. The side effects started to outweigh the benefits (one of the side effects was especially worrying)… Which I’m not happy about, because it worked so well as a mood stabilizer.…
Journey Toward Healing 