Tag: Meltdown

• Never Thought I’d Be Here – Part One

  On Thursday morning I was reading something on the internet, when I started to feel uncomfortable. All of a sudden, that feeling erupted in a full on trigger. I immediately turned into a mess. I became that 14-year-old who had just been broken by someone she had looked up to and trusted. Images and emotions…

  Rayne

  February 1, 2017

  Borderline Personality Disorder

  Anxiety, BPD, Comfort, Confusion, Connection, Dissociation, Emotional Dysregulation, Emotions, Fear, Feeling Lost, Flashbacks, Fragile, Inner Child, Insecurity, Meltdown, Memories, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Overwhelmed, Panic, Psychiatric Clinic, Psychiatrist, Psychologist, Shame, Struggle, The Therapeutic Relationship, Therapist, Trauma

• Crash & Burn

  I’m at breaking point. I haven’t been in this place in a very long time, and I almost didn’t notice the signs. They’ve have been there for months, slowly building up. My previous post “It’s So Dark” is a good indication of where I’m at, but it’s all come to a head now. I’m crashing, and if…

  Rayne

  December 28, 2016

  Depression

  Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Depression, Disconnection, Exhaustion, Feeling Lost, Feeling Stuck, Life, Meltdown, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Needs, Self Care, Tired, Vulnerability

• Protected: A Fragile State

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  Rayne

  December 1, 2016

  Borderline Personality Disorder

  Anger, Behaviour, Black & White Thinking, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Depression, Emotional Dysregulation, Fear Of Abandonment, Fragile, Hopelessness, Hurt, Insecurity, Life, Meltdown, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Rage, Relationships, Sadness, Sensitivity, Studies, Suicidal Ideation

• Interview Panic Sets In

  I have an interview with one of my agents tomorrow (who I haven’t met in person yet). He put my resume forward for a position at a relatively large company. The company expressed interest, but I first need to have an interview with my agent tomorrow. If he thinks I’m a good candidate for the job,…

  Rayne

  November 28, 2016

  Borderline Personality Disorder

  Anxiety, Black & White Thinking, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Confusion, Depression, Despair, Fear, Feeling Stuck, Hopelessness, Insecurity, Life, Meltdown, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Overwhelmed, Panic, Work

• Protected: Work and Mental Health Issues

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  Rayne

  October 31, 2016

  Work

  Anxiety, Change, Confusion, Depression, Despair, Embarrassment, Feeling Lost, Feeling Stuck, Fragile, Frustration, Hopelessness, Hurt, Insecurity, Irritability, Meltdown, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Negativity, Overwhelmed, Panic, Panic Attack, Photography, Quit, Sensitivity, Stress, Struggle, Suicidal Ideation, Work

• Nature’s Gentle Healing

  I went to my favourite spot on the beach yesterday. After a really bad few weeks, I needed to just get away from everything and everyone, if only for a little while. I’m one of the lucky ones. I live in a beautiful city with plenty of sandy white beaches, green parks and spectacular mountains.…

  Rayne

  October 3, 2016

  Depression

  Awareness, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Calm, Comfort, Connection, Contemplation, Depression, Gratefulness, Healing, Hope, Life, Loneliness, Meltdown, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Mindfulness, Peace, Reflection, Sadness, Self Care, Soul, Struggle, Suicidal Ideation, Work