Tag: Mental Illness
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Nightmares & The Dark
I’m having a hard time with my sleeping routine. I’m naturally a night owl, so go to bed quite late. I try to go to bed before 2am though. Sometimes I manage that, other times not so much. I usually wake up sometime between 10 and 11am. At least that’s how it used to be.…
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Healing Isn’t A One Time Thing
As my recent posts have shown, I haven’t been in a good place emotionally. My issues and demons have re-surfaced in a huge way, causing me to doubt all the healing that I thought had taken place within me over the past few years. The other evening I stumbled upon a performance (which you can…
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Getting There
Yesterday was a better day. This roller coaster I’ve been on seems to be slowing down. I’m not off the ride just yet, but the slower speed is a relief. I’m proud of myself for one thing at least. Instead of doing what I would usually do, which is self-medicate with my benzo’s (more than…
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The Place Of Emptiness, Apathy And No Purpose
I just finished an amazing book by Donna Tartt titled The Goldfinch, and want to share a paragraph from it that sums up my feelings (and opinion) about life. “Because I don’t care what anyone says or how often or winningly they say it: no one will ever, ever be able to persuade me that…
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Moment By Moment
They don’t know. Pretending nothing’s wrong. That’s the way it has to be. They don’t understand. They never will. They don’t see… How moment by moment, I’m fighting to keep myself alive. It’s exhausting. But still, I’m trying.
Journey Toward Healing 