As my recent posts have shown, I haven’t been in a good place emotionally. My issues and demons have re-surfaced in a huge way, causing me to doubt all the healing that I thought had taken place within me over the past few years. The other evening I stumbled upon a performance (which you canContinue reading “Healing Isn’t A One Time Thing”
Yesterday was a better day. This roller coaster I’ve been on seems to be slowing down. I’m not off the ride just yet, but the slower speed is a relief. I’m proud of myself for one thing at least. Instead of doing what I would usually do, which is self-medicate with my benzo’s (more thanContinue reading “Getting There”
I just finished an amazing book by Donna Tartt titled The Goldfinch, and want to share a paragraph from it that sums up my feelings (and opinion) about life. “Because I don’t care what anyone says or how often or winningly they say it: no one will ever, ever be able to persuade me thatContinue reading “The Place Of Emptiness, Apathy And No Purpose”
They don’t know. Pretending nothing’s wrong. That’s the way it has to be. They don’t understand. They never will. They don’t see… How moment by moment, I’m fighting to keep myself alive. It’s exhausting. But still, I’m trying.
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This unwelcome feeling seeps into my soul. Where did it come from, and will it ever go? It’s not a thought, nor is it really a desire. It’s a feeling that haunts me day by day. Constantly lurking in the shadows. It’s presence can be felt even on the best days. I can’t stand feelingContinue reading “This Unwelcome Feeling”