Tag: Mental Illness

• Protected: A Hostile Takeover

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  Rayne

  April 2, 2017

  Life, Work

  Anxiety, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Frustration, Introvert, Irritability, Life, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Photography, Rational Emotive Behavior Therapy, REBT, Relationships, Stress, Structure, The Therapeutic Relationship, Therapist, Therapy, Work

• This Unwelcome Feeling

  This unwelcome feeling seeps into my soul. Where did it come from, and will it ever go? It’s not a thought, nor is it really a desire. It’s a feeling that haunts me day by day. Constantly lurking in the shadows. It’s presence can be felt even on the best days. I can’t stand feeling […]

  Rayne

  March 30, 2017

  Borderline Personality Disorder

  Darkness, Depression, Feeling Stuck, Frustration, Mental Health, Mental Illness

• I Am Not

  I am not my past. The past represents those things we have been through. It’s external. Yes, it may leave imprints. It may have changed me. But it’s not who I am deep down inside. I am not my mental illness, anymore than someone with a physical illness is that illness. It’s the deepest parts […]

  Rayne

  March 4, 2017

  Borderline Personality Disorder

  Growth, Life, Mental Illness, Puzzle, Soul, The Past, Trauma

• Attachment: Here We Go Again

  I’ve gone and done it again. I got attached to someone else. My psychiatrist. When I first met her, that Friday that I booked myself into the clinic, I can’t remember most of our interaction. I saw her four more times after that, and didn’t know what to make of her. So there wasn’t an […]

  Rayne

  February 22, 2017

  Borderline Personality Disorder, Relationships

  Abandonment, Attachment, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Connection, Fear Of Abandonment, Fragile, Idealization, Inner Child, Kindness, Little One, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Object Constancy, Psychiatric Clinic, Psychiatrist, Relationships, Sadness, Vulnerability

• Never Thought I’d Be Here – Part Two

  My experience at the clinic was a positive one, excluding the Friday of course. Once I settled in, I started feeling better. Friday evening I slept straight through, as well as every night I was there. Which isn’t normal for me. Usually my first night sleeping out I barely sleep at all. What made it different […]

  Rayne

  February 6, 2017

  Borderline Personality Disorder

  Awareness, Change, Contemplation, DBT, Dialectical Behavior Therapy, Friendship, Healing, Mental Health, Mental Illness, New Beginnings, Psychiatric Clinic, Relationships

• Never Thought I’d Be Here – Part One

  On Thursday morning I was reading something on the internet, when I started to feel uncomfortable. All of a sudden, that feeling erupted in a full on trigger. I immediately turned into a mess. I became that 14-year-old who had just been broken by someone she had looked up to and trusted. Images and emotions […]

  Rayne

  February 1, 2017

  Borderline Personality Disorder

  Anxiety, BPD, Comfort, Confusion, Connection, Dissociation, Emotional Dysregulation, Emotions, Fear, Feeling Lost, Flashbacks, Fragile, Inner Child, Insecurity, Meltdown, Memories, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Overwhelmed, Panic, Psychiatric Clinic, Psychiatrist, Psychologist, Shame, Struggle, The Therapeutic Relationship, Therapist, Trauma