Tag: Missing Someone

• Left Out

  I miss my therapist. I feel this insane need for her right now. I’m not a part of her personal life, and while I’m usually fairly okay with that (well, at least resigned to the boundaries that exist in this relationship), today I’m not. Today it hurts like hell. I want to be where she […]

  Rayne

  November 25, 2017

  Borderline Personality Disorder, Relationships

  Missing Someone, The Therapeutic Relationship, Therapist

• Death Wish

  I didn’t spot you there in the shadows Until it was too late You’ve descended upon me once again And I’m left wondering… Where did you come from? Why are you here? Your presence is uninvited But you don’t care, do you? You just want to make yourself heard No matter the agony you cause […]

  Rayne

  November 8, 2017

  Borderline Personality Disorder

  Life, Missing Someone, Relationships, Suicidal Ideation

• First Love

  Lonely tonight. I had her. I lost her. She let me go. She broke my heart. My first love. A love I never experienced before or since. There were others I thought I was in love with. I wasn’t. I was just infatuated for a short while. I had been fooling myself. But with her […]

  Rayne

  May 1, 2017

  Relationships

  Abandonment, Connection, Goodbye’s, Heartbreak, Loneliness, Loss, Love, Memories, Missing Someone, Music, Regret, Rejection, Relationships, Sadness, The Past, Thoughts

• Broken Hearts

  If you’re reading these words… I wish I could take your tears away. I wish I could take away your hurt. I need you to know, that just because I wasn’t crying, didn’t mean I didn’t feel anything. I felt so much inside. I felt it all. I still do. I just didn’t know how […]

  Rayne

  January 7, 2017

  Relationships

  Attachment, Borderline Personality Disorder, Broken, Change, Connection, Depression, Emotions, Emptiness, Grief, Hurt, Love, Missing Someone, Sadness

• Protected: Merry (Is It?) Christmas

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  Rayne

  December 25, 2016

  Life

  Anxiety, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Depression, Disconnection, Dissociation, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Missing Someone, Relationships, Vulnerability

• Fighting For Air

  This time of year, I feel the grief of everyone I have lost through the years. Too many people. Some gone too soon. Others leaving a broken heart in their shadows as they walk away. Tonight is one of those moments of intense grief. Memories drifting through my mind. The pain and hurt proving that I’m […]

  Rayne

  December 14, 2016

  Depression

  Abandonment, Anger, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Broken, Depression, Despair, Goodbye’s, Grief, Hurt, Life, Loss, Memories, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Missing Someone, Overwhelmed, Relationships, Sadness, Suicidal Ideation, The Past