Tag: Overwhelmed

• Never Thought I’d Be Here – Part One

  On Thursday morning I was reading something on the internet, when I started to feel uncomfortable. All of a sudden, that feeling erupted in a full on trigger. I immediately turned into a mess. I became that 14-year-old who had just been broken by someone she had looked up to and trusted. Images and emotions…

  Rayne

  February 1, 2017

  Borderline Personality Disorder

  Anxiety, BPD, Comfort, Confusion, Connection, Dissociation, Emotional Dysregulation, Emotions, Fear, Feeling Lost, Flashbacks, Fragile, Inner Child, Insecurity, Meltdown, Memories, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Overwhelmed, Panic, Psychiatric Clinic, Psychiatrist, Psychologist, Shame, Struggle, The Therapeutic Relationship, Therapist, Trauma

• Fighting For Air

  This time of year, I feel the grief of everyone I have lost through the years. Too many people. Some gone too soon. Others leaving a broken heart in their shadows as they walk away. Tonight is one of those moments of intense grief. Memories drifting through my mind. The pain and hurt proving that I’m…

  Rayne

  December 14, 2016

  Depression

  Abandonment, Anger, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Broken, Depression, Despair, Goodbye’s, Grief, Hurt, Life, Loss, Memories, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Missing Someone, Overwhelmed, Relationships, Sadness, Suicidal Ideation, The Past

• Interview Panic Sets In

  I have an interview with one of my agents tomorrow (who I haven’t met in person yet). He put my resume forward for a position at a relatively large company. The company expressed interest, but I first need to have an interview with my agent tomorrow. If he thinks I’m a good candidate for the job,…

  Rayne

  November 28, 2016

  Borderline Personality Disorder

  Anxiety, Black & White Thinking, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Confusion, Depression, Despair, Fear, Feeling Stuck, Hopelessness, Insecurity, Life, Meltdown, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Overwhelmed, Panic, Work

• Protected: “Daddy, Please Just Stop, And Notice Me.”

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  Rayne

  November 16, 2016

  Relationships

  Anxiety, Attachment, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Broken, Communication, Confusion, Depression, Despair, Dissociation, Family, Fear, Flashbacks, Fragile, Frustration, Hurt, Inner Child, Insecurity, Little One, Memories, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Overwhelmed, Quit, Rejection, Relationships, Sadness, Sensitivity, Splitting, Suicidal Ideation, The Past, The Therapeutic Relationship, Therapist, Transference, Trauma, Vulnerability, Walls, Work

• Protected: His Face

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  Rayne

  November 8, 2016

  Borderline Personality Disorder

  BPD, Broken, Confusion, Dissociation, Fear, Flashbacks, Memories, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Overwhelmed, Panic, Shame, The Past, Trauma

• Video: The Letter

  I was inspired to make a video, thanks to my lovely friend, Summer (check out her blog here) who has made quite a few of her own already. This is my first video, so it’s not perfect. But it’s good enough. Something I’m learning to be comfortable with, as I’m an extreme perfectionist. I’m been really depressed and drained today. So…

  Rayne

  November 4, 2016

  Depression

  Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Depression, Derealization, Despair, Emptiness, Encouragement, Feeling Lost, Feeling Stuck, Fragile, Hope, Hopelessness, Hurt, Inspiration, Letter, Life, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Music, Numb, Overwhelmed, Resilience, Sadness, Staying The Course, Suicidal Ideation, Vulnerability