Tag: Sadness

• First Love

  Lonely tonight. I had her. I lost her. She let me go. She broke my heart. My first love. A love I never experienced before or since. There were others I thought I was in love with. I wasn’t. I was just infatuated for a short while. I had been fooling myself. But with her…

  Rayne

  May 1, 2017

  Relationships

  Abandonment, Connection, Goodbye’s, Heartbreak, Loneliness, Loss, Love, Memories, Missing Someone, Music, Regret, Rejection, Relationships, Sadness, The Past, Thoughts

• A Permanent Solution

  They say “suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem”. A temporary problem? How about years of “temporary problems”? Being hit time and time again. It’s not just one problem that pushes most people off the edge. It’s the problems that we’re stuck in for weeks, months, years. It all adds up. What then if…

  Rayne

  April 21, 2017

  Borderline Personality Disorder, Depression

  BPD, Breakdown, Broken, Burden, Darkness, Death, Hopelessness, Sadness, Suicide

• Losing You

  You feel a million miles away Each day drawing us further apart It seems we’re pushing one another away Then trying desperately to cling on Is there something left to save?

  Rayne

  March 26, 2017

  Relationships

  Borderline Personality Disorder, Confusion, Depression, Fear Of Abandonment, Feeling Lost, Heartbreak, Hurt, Love, Relationships, Sadness, Walls

• The Void

  Deep Dark The void cannot be seen It can only be felt Cold, dead hand reaching Deep down inside Drawing out the life A life that never existed Desperate Hopeless Empty space all around The untouchable

  Rayne

  March 22, 2017

  Depression

  Depression, Despair, Loneliness, Poetry, Sadness, Suicidal Ideation, Writing

• Heavy

  My legs give way beneath me. My heart is heavy. Switching back and forth between sadness and depression. I can’t get up. The pain is unbearable. I need to stay on the floor for a little while longer, and let the waves wash over me. I can’t fight right now. I need to get my strength…

  Rayne

  March 6, 2017

  Depression

  Depression, Despair, Resilience, Sadness

• Attachment: Here We Go Again

  I’ve gone and done it again. I got attached to someone else. My psychiatrist. When I first met her, that Friday that I booked myself into the clinic, I can’t remember most of our interaction. I saw her four more times after that, and didn’t know what to make of her. So there wasn’t an…

  Rayne

  February 22, 2017

  Borderline Personality Disorder, Relationships

  Abandonment, Attachment, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Connection, Fear Of Abandonment, Fragile, Idealization, Inner Child, Kindness, Little One, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Object Constancy, Psychiatric Clinic, Psychiatrist, Relationships, Sadness, Vulnerability