I was inspired to make a video, thanks to my lovely friend, Summer (check out her blog here) who has made quite a few of her own already.
This is my first video, so it’s not perfect. But it’s good enough. Something I’m learning to be comfortable with, as I’m an extreme perfectionist.
I’m been really depressed and drained today. So this video is as much for me as it is for you.
I hope it can bring you some comfort today.
Life doesn’t own you.
You own life.
Stay alive. Don’t allow the darkness to win. Because if you do, your suffering might come to an end, but the suffering of those you love, and left behind, will only begin.
Be strong. Be brave. Just keep breathing.
I wouldn’t refer to myself as a sunshiney (I don’t think that’s a word, but it is now) person. That honour belongs to my friend Summer… You know who you are.
But today I feel like I am the sun. I feel the sun shining down upon me, the warm glow filling every part of me.
And damn, it feels good!
I can’t remember when last I have felt this good, and had it last almost an entire day. It’s such a welcome relief.
I know there’s a lot of you out there who feel the opposite today. And to you I’d just like to say this:
The darkness feels real right now. It is real. But so is the light. And you will experience that light again. When you feel that sunshine, don’t spend it fearing the darkness that might come again. Just allow yourself to be present in that moment, without thought of what might come tomorrow, or even a few hours later. Enjoy it. Because it’s these little moments of sunshine in our lives that keep us breathing through the worst storms.
You may think you’ve won. You tried to beat me down. You sent all the storms you could throw at me, trying to get me to give up. You knocked me down, you bruised me, but I got up again. You almost had me a few times, but I defeated you over and over again.
You sent an army. But I have something you’ll never have. I have Love. Love stood by my side. I was never alone.
You’re angry with me. Well, I’m angry too.
But I will use this anger to show you just how strong I am. To continue fighting your darkness.
You can throw all the bad memories and nightmares at me that you want. But I won’t give up. I may fall apart, I might break, but give up… I won’t give you the satisfaction. The power.
I may be overwhelmed and broken right now, but I will not give in to you. I will not be kept down. I will rise again, and when I do I’m going to take the world by storm.
One day you’ll get what you want. But not today.
Today I choose Life.