Tag: Suicidal Ideation
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Healing Isn’t A One Time Thing
As my recent posts have shown, I haven’t been in a good place emotionally. My issues and demons have re-surfaced in a huge way, causing me to doubt all the healing that I thought had taken place within me over the past few years. The other evening I stumbled upon a performance (which you can…
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Protected: “You Don’t Really Want to Die, You Want Connection”
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Emmengard’s Suicide Scale
I’ve been dealing with suicidal ideation for the past two weeks. It varies in intensity, and aside from a few “happy” moments here and there, is almost constantly in the background. I try to keep myself distracted where I can. I’ve been going to group again, mostly because I feel it’s a source of support…
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Why I Won’t Be Reaching Out Again
It was my birthday just recently, and I had a bit of a “mid-life crisis” that day. Panicking that I’m in my middle 30’s and still living with parents, and that it seems things will never get better. It doesn’t help that I’ve been in a depressive phase as it is for the past while.…
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Struggling
I’ve been struggling a lot these past few days. My sympathetic nervous system and good old Amy(gdala) thinks I’m in constant danger. My emotions are all over the place. For a couple of hours yesterday I felt completely empty, then another torrent of emotions. Reading my previous post back, I’m aware that my current emotions…
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Remembering Emotions As Waves
It still catches me by surprise how quickly my emotions can change from one minute, hour, week, to the next. When I wrote my last post I was in a pit of despair which had rolled over me while doing light exercise. Everything just suddenly seemed pointless, and didn’t have the strength or energy to…
Journey Toward Healing 