Tag: The Past

• Protected: A Nightmare, and Trust

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  Rayne

  May 14, 2018

  Borderline Personality Disorder, Dreams

  Dreams, Nightmares, Relationships, The Past, Therapist, Trust

• Protected: The Voice Of Shame

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  Rayne

  July 2, 2017

  Borderline Personality Disorder, Life

  Alcohol, Behaviour, Dreams, Drugs, Memories, Regret, Shame, Survival, The Past, Therapist, Work

• I Want It To Stop

  The excruciating physical pain I’ve been in this week has subsided quite a bit. It’s not as unbearable as it was. But the emotional pain has stuck around. In my previous post, I wrote how I feel like crying when thinking about the next day, week, etc. But now, its escalated into panic. How the…

  Rayne

  May 20, 2017

  Borderline Personality Disorder, Trauma

  Depression, Despair, Emotional Dysregulation, Flashbacks, Inner Child, Loneliness, Memories, Music, Nightmares, Panic, The Past, Therapist

• Protection And Running Away

  This is a follow up from my previous post. After I had written it, and gone to sleep, I had a nightmare. Before I get into the dream, it needs to be said that most of my dreams over the years have followed a similar theme. They all involve me protecting others (or myself and…

  Rayne

  May 15, 2017

  Dreams, Life

  Awareness, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Depression, Dreams, Family, Fear, Grief, Inner Child, Little One, Nightmares, Protection, Recurrent Nightmares, Resilience, The Past, Trauma

• Protected: Going Back To The Old Me

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  Rayne

  May 14, 2017

  Life, Relationships

  Broken, Burden, Depression, Disconnection, Emotions, Hurt, Inner Child, Memories, Protection, Rejection, Self-Soothing, The Past, The Therapeutic Relationship, Therapy, Vulnerability, Walls

• First Love

  Lonely tonight. I had her. I lost her. She let me go. She broke my heart. My first love. A love I never experienced before or since. There were others I thought I was in love with. I wasn’t. I was just infatuated for a short while. I had been fooling myself. But with her…

  Rayne

  May 1, 2017

  Relationships

  Abandonment, Connection, Goodbye’s, Heartbreak, Loneliness, Loss, Love, Memories, Missing Someone, Music, Regret, Rejection, Relationships, Sadness, The Past, Thoughts