Tag: Vulnerability

• Protected: Going Back To The Old Me

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  Rayne

  May 14, 2017

  Life, Relationships

  Broken, Burden, Depression, Disconnection, Emotions, Hurt, Inner Child, Memories, Protection, Rejection, Self-Soothing, The Past, The Therapeutic Relationship, Therapy, Vulnerability, Walls

• Emotion

  I don’t always have the words to express my feelings. During such moments, I either find a song to represent how I’m feeling, or I make collages in Photoshop such as this one. I search for images that relate to how I’m feeling. Images that I connect with on a deep level, and then add some…

  Rayne

  March 14, 2017

  Depression, Therapy

  Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Communication, Depression, Despair, Emotions, Fragile, Heartbreak, Inner Child, Thoughts, Vulnerability

• Attachment: Here We Go Again

  I’ve gone and done it again. I got attached to someone else. My psychiatrist. When I first met her, that Friday that I booked myself into the clinic, I can’t remember most of our interaction. I saw her four more times after that, and didn’t know what to make of her. So there wasn’t an…

  Rayne

  February 22, 2017

  Borderline Personality Disorder, Relationships

  Abandonment, Attachment, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Connection, Fear Of Abandonment, Fragile, Idealization, Inner Child, Kindness, Little One, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Object Constancy, Psychiatric Clinic, Psychiatrist, Relationships, Sadness, Vulnerability

• Just A Burden

  Being ignored. The story of my life. But do you think I’m used to it? No, it still fucking hurts. I’m the odd one out. I’m the one whose voice doesn’t matter. Who doesn’t get asked whether I want to do something with them… Only to find out that day, from my uncle (not even…

  Rayne

  January 6, 2017

  Relationships

  Abandonment, Anger, Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Depression, Disconnection, Emotional Dysregulation, Emotions, Family, Frustration, Hatred, Hurt, Inner Child, Insecurity, Irritability, Life, Loneliness, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Needs, Rage, Relationships, Sadness, Sensitivity, Shame, Vulnerability

• Crash & Burn

  I’m at breaking point. I haven’t been in this place in a very long time, and I almost didn’t notice the signs. They’ve have been there for months, slowly building up. My previous post “It’s So Dark” is a good indication of where I’m at, but it’s all come to a head now. I’m crashing, and if…

  Rayne

  December 28, 2016

  Depression

  Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Depression, Disconnection, Exhaustion, Feeling Lost, Feeling Stuck, Life, Meltdown, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Needs, Self Care, Tired, Vulnerability

• It’s So Dark

  For the past week, I’ve been depressed most of the time. I can’t seem to shake it. I don’t even know where I am sometimes. I’m in a constant state of exhaustion. Feeling disconnected from everyone. I just want to be alone. It’s like someone else is living in my head, my body. Empty one…

  Rayne

  December 26, 2016

  Depression

  Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD, Darkness, Depression, Despair, Disconnection, Dissociation, Emptiness, Exhaustion, Feeling Lost, Feeling Stuck, Fragile, Hopelessness, Hurt, Life, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Numb, Suicidal Ideation, Tired, Vulnerability