I don’t want to feel this way anymore.
I’ve been carrying this sadness alone for a while, and it’s been fine, I’ve been okay. But now I would love to have someone reach a hand out to me, and walk through this with me. I don’t want to do this alone anymore. I’m so tired.
I’ve been going through a few things, things I haven’t told anyone I’m struggling with. I feel quiet and withdrawn. I can’t seem to reach out even though I want to. And no one can see what I’m going through. I’m still good at hiding my deepest and truest feelings. I can’t seem to speak out. I can’t even write about it here. The one place I can be completely open and honest.
There are moments where the sadness is so great that even when you’re being verbally attacked, all you can do is stand there, unable to move. The words seem to float over you and disappear into nothingness. There’s no more space for anymore sadness.
That’s where I am. I’m hurting, and wish someone could see through me and hear my silent cry for love and care. Someone who will look deeply into my eyes and really notice me. But how can they, when I’m hiding.
There’s a hole inside me that I can’t fill myself no matter how hard I try.
35 responses to “Tired Of Being Sad And Alone”
I follow your blog as do lots of others. You’re certainly not alone of that I can assure you. There are dark days and dark moments, but with time, there is the opposite and there is light and there is always hope. Perhaps it’s one of those weeks? I feel especially vulnerable this week myself but I’m here and I’m not going anywhere and will continue to support you by reading through your work. Stay strong
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Thanks for your comment Sylvan. I’m just grateful that I’m not in that deep dark depressed, hopeless place. The sadness is horrible, but better than being in that depressive state. I’m sorry that you’re also feeling vulnerable. Sending a hug.
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I understand this feeling Rayne. I hope it helps just to know you are not alone.
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Thanks lovely. ❤
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You’re welcome ❤️
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I’m so sorry you are feeling so sad. I swear this seems to be a theme these last few days. I was feeling so lonely, alone in my pain and so sad about it on Monday. Last night I read a post from someone else I follow here on WordPress that is struggling with loneliness and feeling so alone in her life struggles and now your post came up in my Reader now.
This sucks that so many people are struggling. It’s not fair. It’s not right.
I remember how my sister used to berate me. Last time it happened, I was in the same mindset you wrote about here. I just let her go on and spew.
And it was the same kind of thing, I had been feeling so much sadness about the situation that surrounded her feelings of entitlement to berate me like a child.
I hope you find peace soon.
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That’s the thing about WordPress. You never feel like you’re the only one who’s feeling a specific way, or struggling with something. There’s always someone who is in the same place as us. Thank you so much for your comment.
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I know it. WordPress is definitely a special place on the internet. I hope you feel better soon.
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Thanks. 🙂 xx
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My heart is with you in all of this. I so wish I lived close to you Rayne. I know that longing for a true friend who really understands. Sadly too life can be about being alone for some of us most of the time. That is how my life is lately. I know how deep and hard it feels. But please know there is love for you in my heart even though I have never met you. I pray in time your sadness lets go just a little and you find some light and hope and joy. Love Deborah 🌷
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I sometimes always wish that a lot of us who support one another here where living closer together. We could meet up for coffee, be there in person for one another. But knowing that even though we’re far apart, we still have this support, and it helps lighten the load.
Thank you for your beautiful message Deborah. ❤
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I wish that too Rayne, My internet has been down so I could only just respond to this today. Love D ❤
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No worries. 🙂 You see how long it takes me to respond to comments these days. It’s the same with email. It feels overwhelming sometimes so I have to step back.
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Yes I understand. I have found some days I am best not to log onto the computer. It takes up too much energy that is needed for grounding. On other days I feel differently.
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That’s so true.
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hi rayne. I hear you and I get it. sometimes it just feels so lonely even though you are not alone because you have a tribe of people here in wordpress who love and care about you. but sometimes it just feels insurmountable. I get that. sending many hugs to you. xo
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It does help a person get through knowing that there are people (no matter how far) who care. Thank you for caring and for the hugs. ❤ xx
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Hugs ♥️
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Thank you lovely. ❤
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I think those of us in the mental health blogging community can relate 100% to what you say here. I know I can. Desperately wanting to be seen, to be known and understood but petrified of it too. And the sadness that dilemma provokes because it seems like there’s no way out that doesn’t involve pain. I wish I could give you a hug and be the one to see you xx
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You said it so well. You’re a sweetheart, thank you for your comment. xx
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I hear you and I feel for you so deeply…That gaping hole really is awful and I am so sorry you are feeling so alone…As so many others have said, if only we lived closer then we could be there for you in person. Sending you many hugs xxx
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Your compassion and empathy is simply beautiful. Sending love and hugs your way. xx ❤
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I’m so sorry you are struggling! You are NOT alone- we all get the feelings and understand. I hope you are able to connect w someone soon. Take care!!
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Thank you. 🙂
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Feeling alone is absoluely the worst. To feel noone sees what is deeper inside that they should be able to see just looking in your eyes makes for loneliness. Ive been in this space too for weeks now and frustration has really set in for hy i cant fix this!!!
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Feeling alone, that loneliness, is heartbreaking. I hope you’re feeling better this week? ❤
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This is just a hard time for me, im not feeling better at all. I wish i were but i just have to wait this out i think
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I’m so sorry you’re not feeling any better. Sending love and hugs your way. ❤
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Thank you, hard times. I haven’t been reading any blogs. My brain feels too full. I hope you are ok
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Feeling alone is very excruciating. My heart goes out to you! Hugs!
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That it is. Thanks Blue. ❤
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You have explained my condition. May God be with you ❤
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Is there any way to talk to you? Any email?
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You can use the “contact me” link on this blog. 😊
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