Tag: Loneliness
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Vaccine and Life
On Thursday I went for my first dose of the Pfizer covid vaccine. It went better than I was expecting. I have no issues with needles, but I do get anxious and paranoid about side effects (same as whenever I take a new medication). My arm was a bit painful that evening, but not enough…
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How Can I Believe?
I wish I could believe this quote. I’ve been somewhat in survival mode for so long that it feels I’ll never get out of it. That there’s no end in sight. My childhood was one of survival. I always thought that once I was out of that stage of my life I would be okay.…
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Nightmares & The Dark
I’m having a hard time with my sleeping routine. I’m naturally a night owl, so go to bed quite late. I try to go to bed before 2am though. Sometimes I manage that, other times not so much. I usually wake up sometime between 10 and 11am. At least that’s how it used to be.…
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Under Again
I’m so angry, I want to break and destroy things and certain people. My rage has been so intense and I don’t know any other way to release it in a satisfactory way, other than hurting myself. I haven’t seen my therapist in over two weeks, and won’t be seeing her tomorrow (and probably next…
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Too Much
Too much pressure. Too much pain. Anxiety. Worry. One shock after another. One of my friends recently told me that I seem to have the worst luck. Ha! I try so damn hard. I try to be positive. And for what? For everything to blow up in my face anyway? For things to continually go…