Can’t face the world. Want to disappear.
Can’t face those you most want to connect with – wanting to push them away – already feeling as though you have done something wrong in the relationship and that it’s not fixable. Pulling away and disconnecting feels like the only possible thing left to do.
Being in your own body and mind is unbearable. Every part of you is on fire.
Unbelievable pain and torment.
Taking medication early just so you can go to sleep and forget you exist.
The thing with shame is that when you feel it for any specific reason or even for an imagined or blown out of proportion “infraction”, your entire history of shameful feelings and events joins in, pulling you even further down the hole.